Tuesday, April 12, 2011

It's (almost) my birthday and I'll eat if I want to...

I weighed 230 last Saturday so I'm still trending downward but definitely not really working at it. My spring sinus/cold has slowed me from exercise but amazingly enough, it has not phased my appetite. I can't remember if it's "stuff a cold, starve a fever" or "starve a cold, stuff a fever" so I've been stuffing...oh well, it's a journey, not a destination.

I've started a new step study in Celebrate Recovery. Last year I think I tried to treat everything as past tense - I tried to answer the questions relative to where I was in recovery back when I was early in sobriety. I definitely experienced some growth from the last study but I believe I need to focus more on the person I am today. Otherwise it's more of a documentary of the past instead of a tool for growth. I can here Jan saying "We have not arrived."

I need to apply the "we have not arrived" attitude to more of my life...I won't be done until about three days before the funeral...

Later